I Don’t Know

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I don’t know.
I don’t know what to say or what to do.
Should I give you a hug or should I just leave you alone?
I don’t know what I can say to make you feel better.

I want to say everything is alright but it isn’t,
and it might not be for a very long time.
What happened sucked, there is no denying that,
but where do we go from here.

He was here and then he was gone, like he evaporated from existence.
I can’t change what happened or bring him back.
I’m sorry that’s just not how the world works,
but just because his life ended doesn’t mean yours did.

You are here and you are alive.
You should keep on going with your life for him.
You will feel sad and it will hurt,
but that’s just part of life.

Live your life in a way you know would make him proud.
Use what has happened to give you strength and courage,
because you know wherever your father is in the universe he is cheering you on.
He loved you very much and he hates that he has made you suffer.

I truly believe that with all of my heart.
I don’t know if this has helped you any.
I don’t know if things will ever feel normal again.
I don’t know.

I just don’t know.

Elisabeth Livingston - OWTL Guest Contributor-01
Elisabeth Livingston : Student. Feminist. Dog Lover.
Can be found in a cocoon of blankets on her bed
while she binge-watches baking shows.