I hope you’re smiling looking back at this or that you remember it at least. And you sure as hell better be content with your life in some aspects.
At 19 you have absolutely nothing figured out. That’s okay. I’m positive by 30 you will be in a place that not only you deserve but a place that fits you well and makes you happy.
I wrote this letter before, at a time where the sadness was consuming. You know what I’m talking about. That sadness that is so consuming you let it guide you. Let it trap you and how it makes you lose touch with yourself. But look, here you are, writing this letter in a more positive mindset, grounded, and finally feeling more like yourself again. You always overcome whatever is thrown your way, even at 19, and I’m sure at 30 it is just the same. All is as it should be. You’re okay. Even at 30 I know you understand that the sadness comes in waves but at the end of the worst you always end up grounded and stronger. At 30 you will be one hell of a strong woman. I know this for a fact. Look at you at 19, still fighting even when you want to give up! I’m so very proud of you.
You have dreams, big ones. Dreams that keep you up all night because you want to be experiencing them in that very moment. Dreams that may seem too fairytale-ish to others, too unrealistic. Listen to me. Your dreams are valid. They are yours. No one can tell you otherwise. I hope by 30 you have come to accept yourself as you are and accept that you truly are a genuine person. You carry good intentions in every ounce of your being. Take pride in that. It is not a weakness to see the good in people. It is not a weakness to let your dreams guide you. It is not a weakness to follow your heart, to follow your feelings. I’m sure by 30 you will have experienced so much of what you have wanted to. And listen. Its okay to have aspirations and dreams, let them guide you, but do not let them hold you back. It is 100% okay to end up somewhere different than you had in mind and stray from whatever path you think you must take. Dreams keep you alive, remember that.
On that note, I swear to god if you have not compiled a book of poetry together by this age and tried to get published I will time travel and smack you in the forehead. It is okay to take pride in your passion. It is not cocky. You have a gift. Share it with the damn world already.
By 30 I trust that you have traveled. Maybe it is just throughout the States, maybe it’s out of the country, nonetheless I have faith you have traveled and experienced different cultures and atmospheres. I trust that you have broadened your spectrum of experience.
I hope you have experienced a love as strong as Mom and Dad’s by 30. Self-love is first priority of course, but the hopeless romantic I know must have fallen deeply in love by now. I hope you have found someone you have shed your soul to and someone who accepts you as you are. Someone who adds to your life and does not take away. You let feelings guide you in life and I know every relationship in your life, romantically and friendships, will be strong and lasting.
Speaking of Mom and Dad I hope you have kept in contact with the family. No matter where you are, where you have gone, I hope you have shared your experiences and feelings with them. They are the center of your life and radiate love in all aspects, hold on to them all tight and never let them go.
Just remember to continue to take your time and experience your life to the fullest. Time is flying by even at 19 and I know it’s scary. So laugh a shit ton, fall in and out of love, cry, scream, do crazy things, and keep trying! I’m so very proud of you and love you so much.
Keep your head up,